This Woman's Worth

04 October 2006

I'VE BEEN SLACK BUT BUSY

Hey fellow bloggers!

It's been a long time, I know, but.... I'm still alive, kicking, breathing, and loving life!

I started my new job in August and am still loving it! Child Protective Services (CPS) is never dull. And I get to work with the Foster Care Unit as well.

Today, I get to see how much I can type and get across within a 15 minute break period.

What have I been up to lately?

Well, I started and ended a relationship. He was married. WTH?

And, recently, I was reunited with an old friend from college. I went to the club approx. 3 weeks ago. The club's name is Club RA here in Columbia, SC. The clubs down here don't even compare to the clubs in DC and Baltimore. I miss it so much up there! I can't wait to get back!!!

So, back to my old friend.

My girl and I got to the club, were on our second round of drinks, standing next to the cage and watching people dance when I hear, "Is that Aaaaaa..." As I turn around I see this familiar face standing next to my girl's boy and the Aaaaa is completed into Ashley.

What? Who? No Way! That's..... enter his name here....!!!! We hugged and I promise you it wasn't that friendly "Hey! How have you been? I can't believe you're here!" type hug. It was a "It's really you! I've missed you so much! I'm so glad to see you! Don't let go of me this time!" movie scene hug. And it felt so good. It felt RIGHT. It felt like we belonged in that embrace forever.

BUT! HOLD UP! I remember something very important here!

Ok... gotta give him a name... we'll call him AC, because he attended Anderson College.

"AC," as I'm looking at his left hand, "how's your marriage?"

The last time I saw him, which was 9 years ago, he was engaged. Although I saw no ring on his left hand, which means NOTHING nowadays, and no marks that a ring has been on his hand for the past few sunny days.

"Ash, it just didn't work. I'm not divorced, but we are separated. She has our sons and she has a boyfriend."

And, he's been in my apartment since that Sat. night. And things have been GREAT! I've met his two sons, who are absolutely adorable, loveable, and handsome just like their daddy! She saw me for the first time last night. BUT... she acted like she didn't. I think she just wanted to know what I look like, which is cool. I can deal with that.

AC and I have spent so much time together and haven't gotten sick of each other, yet. Maybe it's the newness, BUT... well... I guess it can be new even though you've known each other for years.

What's strange is that a month prior, I was riding down I-20 to the northeast side of town to visit the family. Five miles from my exit I pass this black Dodge Durango and looked at the driver as I rode past. Man, this male was FOINE! We're talking Michael Eady FOINE!!! As I passed him, he sped up. As he passed me, we stared at each other. We did this, passing back and forth and giving each other the eye thing, all 5 miles. As the exit approached, I passed him again, jumped in front of him, and threw on my blinker in plenty of time to let him know that he could follow me if he wanted. He didn't. He rode past, staring the entire way.

The Saturday night AC and I reunited, he asked me, "Ashley, do you drive a Blazer?"

I drive a black GMC Envoy, 1998, that looks like a Blazer. A month prior to me and AC reuniting, we were driving the same interstate flirting with one another.

AC told me, "When I saw you driving, all I could think was, IS THAT ASHLEY? I started to get off the exit with you, but I had my sons with me. If it hadn't been you, I wouldn't want some crazy chick to go off on me in front of my sons. So, after you exited, I just said, IF IT'S HER, I'LL SEE HER AGAIN." And here we are.

Neither of us has forgotten about the other in 9 years. And AC doesn't remember everyone. I wonder what that means. I'm taking every day by the day and enjoying every moment I have with him.

However, I'm packing up my apartment to move in with my parents so that I can save money, get out of debt, go back to school, and enjoy life a lil more afterwards. I'm not looking forward to the withdrawal I'm going to experience come Oct. 10. I've grown accustomed to waking up in the mornings to him, seeing him after work, coming home to him after work, falling asleep next to him, and talking about any and everything with him. I'll miss his company/presence while living with my parents, but he's reassured me that we'll continue to do what we do no matter where I live. He keeps telling me that I'll be done with him before he's done with me. He said that all the girls stop talking to him because they get bored. I'm thinking... he and I have history, we respect each other, and I know how happy I am with him. I'm not going anydamnwhere!!!! But... I'ma just keep enjoying things and having fun!

So... there's the update on my life. I'm going to try to do better with blogging.

I have a lot to blog about, my parents, the anniversary of my sister's death, moving, etc... but... I have to find the time. And... maybe my 15 minute breaks can be that....

A word of advice from a DSS CPS treatment worker. If you can't provide for your child like you should or doubt your parenting skills, don't have any kids. It's not fair to the children. What I've seen in the past two months... certain people deserve to have their children removed because they are suckass parents!

fyi... I am so glad that I can listen to WPGC 95.5FM! It makes me feel like I'm closer to DC. Are there any other radio stations that are streaming in the DC/B'more area? If so, PLEASE let me know!